Thinking About A Dead Friend
How secretly critical I was
of his passivity, his naiveté
about the world, even
his embarrassment and awkwardness.
How it made me feel
I should help him
—and how I resented that feeling.
How I wanted something from him
but can’t say what
except perhaps more words.
Now when suddenly I miss him
and realize he no longer exists
in this city…in this world,
I wonder why
his quiet caring
and steady gentleness
were not enough for me.
Harvey Shepard is a professor emeritus of physics at the University of New Hampshire.